My father has had some intense health issues in the last year. I have been back and forth to Indiana a few times to help out and lend support. That has been hard.
The staff at my business is in flux. I have had one retire, one go back to part time, and one is on the verge of leaving for a different life. What that means in my world is that I have to pick up the slack and do their jobs. I know how. I like to work. Just now it seems hard.
In March, I was diagnosed with Hepatitis C. An accidental diagnosis when I donated some blood. It seems I have had this in a dormant state for a very long time. The issue is that if I don't get it treated soon, I will become very ill. Right now, the symptoms are starting to surface. Extreme fatigue. Pain.
The insurance companies have refused to pay for the treatment and the specialty pharmacies want $166,000.00 for the medication. Right now, I am doing nothing except waiting for a better option. It is hard to wait and tests my patience greatly.
I have a loved one having a difficult time in life. It affects me very much, because all I can do is pray for everything to be better. It is so very hard not to be able to just fix things for the people that you love.
I am exercising. I am eating well. I am not drinking. (Damn. That might have made this not so hard!)
I have good friends who have been and are being very supportive. I have a husband who is a rock. It is hard to watch him be so strong through these times.
Am I whining? Absolutely.
Will we withstand these trials and move forward? Absolutely.
But, right now, it just seems HARD.
