No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. That has been said a lot. I don't know if that it is true in your youth. As I age, I seem to understand more about myself. I look back, as many do, and say who was that person 20 or 30 years ago?
I spent a lot of my life looking for blessings that would never come. I received blessings that I never expected. I have given blessings to many, especially young men and women, that have come through my life. I believe that we have to promote happiness and well being in everyone.
I think about "the blessing". In the Bible, Jacob stole Esau's blessing. It has always been a big deal. People shape their lives around it. They become someone they are not, just so they can have the "blessing" and approval that they believe they need.
I think the blessing we look for first and maybe the most, is the blessing from our parents. I believe that I finally received that blessing. I think I had to go through a lot to get it. I had to stop wanting it. I had to become my own person. I had to understand that I never really needed it. When I understood all of that, I understood that it was always mine for the taking. That my parents, and I think this is true of most, did the best they could, and if they didn't, it had nothing to do with me.
One of my children called me and asked for my blessing on a major life change. I told my child that I would not give an opinion, but I would give my blessing. I said that asking the old ones to make life decisions for the young is a bad idea. We get afraid as we age. In youth, there is more passion and less fear.
I would not be where I am today, if I listened to the old ones tell me it was a bad idea to start my business. I am trying to give my children the blessing of unconditional love. It is a hard one. Of course, I love them, of course, I would give my life for them. The hard part is watching them make mistakes.
It all comes down to control, doesn't it?
I want my children to feel blessed. I want them to know that it is okay to be who they are. That I will always be there. I know that sometimes, I don't communicate it to them as well as I could. (Control??) (Fear??) I will continue to try. I strive for the positive outlook. I want people around me to feel okay. I want to feel okay.
Is the lesson here, not to judge anyone for any reason? Hard one. Can I live the rest of my life trying to give positive blessings to the people around me and never judging? How open can my heart and mind be? Can I really "Let go and let God"?
This is a daily struggle.I know that there is a moral way to live. Is it my right to define that morality for everyone? and to judge those that disagree with me?
Is it right to withhold a blessing? Or just to pick and choose whom you love and respect and bless with positive energy?
I think that you don't have to involve yourself with what you consider immoral or wrong, but when does the action of a person, become the person?
Bless the person and abhor the action. What a goal! Has anyone reached that goal? Jesus? Mother Theresa? Other saints?
I like to ask the question, "What do mere mortals do?" I think the answer is that we do the best we can.
I am blessed and I know it every day of my life.
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