Awakening

I read a blog about spiritual awakening the other day. They even had 12 signs that supposedly let you know when your spirit is coming awake!
 I decided to look at these 12 signs and see how I am doing.

1. An increased tendency to let things happen, rather than make them happen.

I am so not there. I think that if I don't get it done, it probably won't get done! I am willing to be more flexible with my life and if I feel overwhelmed, I just let go. That is a little let go, not a big one!

2. Frequent attacks of smiling.

This one I am pretty good at. I find humor in most things and I am really willing to laugh at myself and the absurdities of life!

3. Feelings of being connected with others and nature. 

I totally get this one. I understand unity. I feel the cosmic pull of life. I understand the mass consciousness of the planet. I feel it. I watch it. I try not to be pulled into it. (Sometimes, I even accomplish that!)

4. Frequent overwhelming episodes of appreciation. 

Again, I have this one. I am grateful. I have everything. My life is incredible.

5. A tendency to think and act spontaneously, rather than from fears based on past experiences.

This is a work in progress. Every day of my life, I work on becoming fearless.

6. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.

Fail. I enjoy many moments of my life, but I don't enjoy them all. I work through things better than I used too, but I am so not there!

7. A loss of ability to worry. 

I believe if you have family, you worry.

8. A loss of interest in conflict.

I have never been really good at conflict. I had way too much as a child, so I have never had an interest in it. I avoid conflict whenever I can.

9. A loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others. 

Again, fail!! I love to interpret the actions of others. Analyzation  is as natural to me as breathing. I analyze everything in my life and everyone.

10. A loss of interest in judging others. 

Everyday I work on not being judgmental.  It is so hard. I come from a Baptist background and the religion itself is judgmental. I learned it well.  It is a constant test in my life. I am doing much better, though. I think this is a test that I will eventually pass. Forgiveness is such a big part of this one.

11. A loss of interest in judging self. 

I am not sure how you can attempt to change without self judgement. I believe that you have to forgive yourself. That is probably the hardest one of all.

12. Gaining the ability to love without expecting anything. 

I believe that I am doing well with this one. I love many people and my expectations are very low. I am essentially just happy to know them.

So, Am I becoming spiritually awake? I don't know.

I do know that everyday I work hard on my life and my being. I do know that everyday I try to become fearless. Everyday, I try to forgive myself and try not be judgmental. I know that life is a gift and I am grateful for the opportunity to learn and grow in this life. I know that everyone is in my life for a reason and I have to work to understand and appreciate the reason. I know that everything I experience will teach me something, if I let it.


 I know that I want to be the best I can be and I will work really hard to get there.